PR Race

  
First full-body shot allowed in awhile. I did PR this race tonight, but Ultimately was not happy with my performance. Ah-well there’s always the Mothers Day race in early May, right? 😎

October, 2015-April 16, 2016: Look at that pace progression!
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Bu-Bye Crossfit

So I did Crossfit for about a year and a half before I had surgery. I absolutely despised it the entire time. Quite honestly I think the only reason I did it at all was because it was something my husband and I did together. 

We’re talking anxiety attacks and yes, sobbing, on the way to the box almost every time. Many times I cried during Crossfit too. I thought it had to be my weight and because I was trying to sling around 240 lbs that’s why it made me so miserable. 

So I thought/hoped that maybe now it might not be bad-that because I’ve lost all of this weight it wouldn’t just totally suck anymore. Plus it was still something my husband and I could do together. He doesn’t run at all so it’s not like that was an option. So I (thank God) IM’d the Crossfit coach and was straight with him. Said I was anxious about coming back and signing a contract, only to realize I still f’g hated it. So he told me I could just do a punch card first and then at the end of the month see what’s up. Ok, I can handle that…

So I went April 1st. Dreaded it the whole day. Hated everything about it while I was doing it and my outlook was grim after I was finished. Crap. 

I need to add something more to my exercise than just running and yoga-but I’m really not disciplined to do strength trianing from an app or Pinterest–what in the world was I going to do?

One golden nugget fell into my lap as we waited for the Crossfit class to begin that night. One of the ladies was talking about how she had done this and that and everything was just too Boring for her. Then I heard her mention ‘the kickboxing gym in (my town)’. I think I knocked someone over as I reeled around with great interest in finding out more about this kickboxing gym. Here? We have a real kickboxing gym close by? Apparently we do. And I was vera, vera excited about that!! I did real kickboxing in late Highschool and loved it. Then we moved to GA after I graduated and I have just never found one that was the real deal anywhere near me so didn’t get back into it. So of course the next opportunity I got I stopped into said gym. They do kickboxing, muiy tai (sp?) kickboxing, boxing and Crossfit. You’re not limited to days you can go or which activity – you can do CF then walk right over and do the kickboxing class then stay for open gym, 6 days a week! And it’s only $20 more a month! 

I took my first class to make sure they were the real deal – no gi and lots of sweat. I swiped my card right after class was over. And every time I go I am so excited and pumped to get there and do it. This is what I needed- this is not only motivation, but a hella workout and the best one-on-one personal trianing I’ve ever seen. I am in love! So running-check. Yoga-check. Now kickboxing-check! So freaking excited! I’m bruised and blistered and starting to get a little calloused, and I’m sore like I should be using all of these muscles in new ways so I know the results are sure to come. 

Moral of the story – find the workouts that get you jazzed. Don’t fit yourself into a box that you think you should be in to get a workout in. 

On the running front, I am making HUGE progress. 6 months ago I was running a 16:30 average mile. Now I’m doing under 13! I’m almost there to goal – May 21 is the Big Day–the 1st goal race. Running the entire race without stopping to walk at all. I’m close. So close. Getting better every time. Still not getting over 10 miles a week like I want to but I’m getting 8-9 miles… Not too far off. I don’t get nervous before a run anymore. I’m not interval trianing anymore either. Just the MMR app that tells me pace and distance as I go and then logs it in my history. 

Yoga in the mornings, running in the afternoon (as many days as work allows) and kickboxing in the evening (as many days as kid’s sports allow). Here I come healthy!! 

My 7 month sleevaversary is Saturday. Husband has a Warrior Dash obstacle race the afternoon and then I have a 5k that night so I think Sunday we’ll do measurements. Let’s see where I’m at…  

Xoxo

Best Time Yet

So I just wanted to share a quickie tonight about my race this Saturday. I was thrilled with the fact that I made my best time yet! I still have a ways to go, but finishing the race in 38:23 is a HUGE leap from the 47+ minutes I was doing 6 months ago.  That’s serious progress to see, and was really what I needed this weekend. Because sometimes we look at our progress in too small of increments. When we take a look backwards, to see how far we’ve actually come, it can be such an awesome feeling of accomplishment!  So if you’re struggling with progress by the millimeters right now, take a look back at how far you’ve come since the start. And then give yourself a well-deserved pat on the back!

  

Before and during

Hello y’all! Great start to the week! Can you BELIEVE Christmas Eve is in 10 days? Where is time going this year-it’s been a very fast year! 

Not too much to talk about today, but wanted to share some pictures- some “before” and “during…” side-by-sides that really blew me away today.  I know I see a difference in the mirror but I also always see something different when I look at pictures of myself. Does anyone else do that? Think, that’s not what I see when I look in the mirror, who Is that woman?  I still think that but at least I see I am making progress. 
   
   
I went to a really fancy Holiday party over the weekend.  Got my hair done in a great bottom cross-braid where it was loose and curled on the side. I felt so pretty. It’s a wonderful thing when a girl gets to be gussied and glamorous out on the town for a night once in awhile. Especially one that works from home sporting yoga pants or workout gear all day and simply (most of the time) brushes her hair. Otherwise it’s a pony tail or messy bun. And I didn’t even have to wear spanxs, the dress flattered enough so I didn’t have to fight with that contraption riding up all night lol. Not a single picture turned out with decent lighting but here’s these I thought I would share

   
    
 
Fun fun with show and tell.

Remember the ankle I rolled last weekend so bad? I did a very light run this morning and all seemed fine. Until I got off and the day progressed. My ankle is swollen, painful to the touch, and making me limp by this hour. I really am hoping to avoid x-rays.  More than anything I want to get back to my training. It’s clear I have to find other routines until this heals. Huge set-back from my goal of running a full 5k without walking by March 4th.  We’ll see how long this keeps running halted. Got to stay positive.

Been back on track with eating. Tonight I made this great healthy chicken and bean chile that was so good my husband ate all of what was supposed to be my lunch tomorrow :(. Oh well, I’ll throw one together again tomorrow. I’ll post it my recipes page soon. 

So I may have taken 3 steps back in following the program but I know I’ve at minimum taken 1.5 steps forward this week to reclaim. Would be better if the ankle wasn’t bad. So strength  training and modified Insanity here I come. 

Well that’s it for me tonight. Hope you are all doing well!

Xoxo

Bad, bad me!

For shame on me!  I have eaten so awful today! I’ve been so incredibly stressed and overwhelmed at work- I love my job but training is a year long for a reason! Anyway I broke down and cried twice today. 

Uh, yeah…um, back to the food part. Well I kicked off the day bea-u-tifuly – I finally got through my whole circuit of C25k training early this morning. I pushed hard and got through it, even though it was my second attempt. I did it and was seriously doing the happy dance (after I could breathe again of course). That’s where my success for the day (on all accounts, but we’ll stick to the food) ended. 

First of all I let myself get starved because of my very busy schedule today. Half protein shake, run, water, half hour later, rest of protein shake.  Then nada for like 5 hours.  I had to run an errand today and was absolutely ready to eat a horse by the time I was finished.   And like a beacon –I see the Golden Arches. And who the hell’s idea was it to serve breakfast all day anyway?  Yes. I ate half a bacon egg and cheese biscuit. 

I’m not done. 

So that was the last time I ate and it was like 2 o’clock. Fast forward to 8 o’clock and I’ve been so busy I haven’t eaten or drank a bite. I don’t think my ass left my office chair at all…There was no way I was cooking for the family tonight-no way I could– I had school work still yet to do after I finally called work quits at 7. So I ordered pizza for them. For them. 

Annnnnd…I come out of my office to sign for the pizza and can NOT stop myself-I ate a tiny piece of pepperoni and bacon pizza. I was so freaking hungry and will power after all the crying and stress of today…yeah…it was a goners. 

Ok. So dust off the weakness, strive not to do it again, and start over tomorrow. It’s all I can do. 

*sigh*

2 Month Surg-aversary 

Today marks exactly 2 months to the day from surgery. I have mixed emotions about that because I am not where I’d thought I’d be at this milestone, but overall am proud of the progress I’ve made so far. 

I’m down a total of 30.8 lbs. I just literally broke the 200’s – but barely. I know the doctor said I’m  progressing just fine but I have put it a LOT of effort here with running and eating and just though I’d be closer to the 40 lbs+ milestone right now. 

Which speaking of food- I’m getting so bored with my diet. I am going to have to really start delving into some recipes to get some variety soon, or trigger foods are soon to become a real problem. I do well avoiding the kids after-school snacks but they are looking more and more enticing as the days of baked chicken, hamburger patties, and protein shakes consist of my daily diet. I did make a chicken and white bean chili tonight that is less spicy than the last batch I made-which was so good but my pouch can not handle anything with a semblance of spice yet-not even salsa for eggs.  Hope it’s a yummy change that I can handle.  Fingers crossed…

I’m a bit ambivalent these last weeks about my journey so far. Not in a bad way- I feel like if I focus less on the scale I am less stressed about the progress I am (not)/making and I can focus on the daily activity and routine of my food and diet. Plus, I’m just sort of tired of worrying right now-it’s taking away from some of the real progress am making on a daily basis.  That’s not to say I am not. I’m still thinking about it, just not obsessing about it. I hope that makes sense.  

Enough about WLS for right now. Some life and NSV wins

  • I’m killing it at work. Just started this job in May-my dream job/company- and I am kicking ass.  Hope this trend continues as my client load becomes more complex in 2016.
  • I found some workout skorts I love to workout in on clearance for $5 each and was able to get a Large! Not XL- large. And they fit well!
  • My old company is paying me premium to come in for two days this week and week after Thanksgiving to do some things I’m the only one who could do-which is really much needed cash. 
  • I’ve been killing it at C25k training and additional running training. Very proud of myself and the progress I’ve made. My goal is to run 3.5 mikes without stopping by my birthday and like an omen found one 5k race the day after in my town.
  • Husband notices BIG differences in my body. Happy!
  • Did I mention I only have 9 papers (not counting assignments) until I’m done with school forever?!
  • Relationships in my life are becoming more rich and I am able to reciprocate more than I ever have been able to (time management issues in the past).

I’m trying to dedicate more time to everyone’s blogs and stories because I really love this WordPress community and want to know others victories. I’m sorry I’ve been behind and promise to be more present going forward. I think about you all many times a day and wonder how each of you are doing. Just haven’t been able to catch up on my emails.  So sorry my responses will be delayed but I am reading and catching up over the next couple days. You all are so inspirational and just wonderful people- I’m so thankful to share your friendships. 

See you in the posts soon. Much love!

-Xoxox 

Accuracy, Race, & Reflection

First, I have a correction to make. It seems that my husband and I took my measurements wrong the first time we did them (after the personal trainer did them the day before surgery).  So we did them again yesterday, correctly, and here are my actual inch changes since surgery:

 


Again, this is the My Body app on iPhone. So easy-love it. Anyway…

Lots to talk about today. Did my 5k under the Christmas Lights last night and really killed it. I was SO proud of myself after this race! It took my son and I over 7 minutes to get past the WALL of people walking and the strollers.  Why we decided to start in the last corral…well, it was a big mistake. I don’t know if I ever want to do a race that big again-over 1500 racers. But once we broke through, it wasn’t too bad passing people throughout the race. The last mile was almost completely up-hill. My son made me long-stride run that dang last mile though, let me tell you. And I DID (most of it)!!!  With all of that nonsense in the beginning our time was still 46:41. I think that could have honestly been 43-something  had it not been for the wall of slog.  See, a lot of people just walk this race to see the Christmas Lights-which is why those smart people start in the last corral and why we shouldn’t have. It was a really pretty race to run though, I’ll have to admit. The Lights really were amazing and put me in the Holiday spirit. And I beat my time by almost 4 minutes from last weekend, so go me! 

Son has Poison Oak so bad, thats why his face/eye looks crazy

So my crazy self decided it would be fun to run another 5k at the park with my very good girlfriend who is training for a half ironman in June.  Boy runningef today was hard and I think I power walked more than I jogged, but I still got 47:17, so still better than last weekend. (I clearly didn’t push myself at all last weekend…). 

I’m so sore I can barely move this evening. It’s a good sore though-I know I really worked it this last week and weekend.

I broke into one-derland today!!! Woo-hoo! 199.2 baby! Excited to what the morning scale will say…so glad to finally be here I cannot describe. 

Looking forward to a great week!
  

Glow Race

 

Pre-race
 
My daughter and I did our glow-in-the-dark 5k tonight. My best friend too, but not sure she would want her picture plastered here, lol. None of the post-race pictures came out very clear because it was dark, of course but this was us pre-race before we put on our glow-stick garb. 

So it’s been raining like crazy here this week and it was a huge mud puddle everywhere (slowed us down a bit) but we got lucky and didn’t get rained on during the race like we were expecting. 

Not thrilled with my time (49:39) -actually pretty surprised by it-but feeling really good after the race. Probably could have pushed myself a bit harder than I did. I was a little thrown off watching my feet the whole time because it was dark and there was mud and leaves everywhere, but I should have pushed myself to run more than I did. So next weekend’s race is a serious goal for a certain time window for me. My son will be racing with me next weekend and I’m sure he will push me to run a lot more-if he even stays with me, hahaha.  (He’ll probably leave me in the dust).  My daughter was great tonight too-she decided to do the c25k app then she stayed with me the rest of the race and really cheered me on.  

Update on my doctor visit yesterday-And I only had to wait 10 minutes to be seen! Win! I met with the nutritionist/fitness physiologist.  He told me I’m doing everything right, that I could keep my carbs down a little more- but other than that was losing at exactly the pace/amount expected for my starting surgery weight. He said I should probably start seeing the scale start moving again in a month. A month?! He said based on my measurement losses that I’m building lean muscle mass and it’s counter-acting the fat loses from a scale point of view. That my BMI was probably going down. It was great to hear all of that from him though. So, just have to keep trucking along like I am. 😜

Great week all in all! Crazy Sunday ahead of me! So, ‘night my wonderful WLS family!

-Xoxox

Planning

Happy Friday! It’s not Friday, but it’s my Friday today!!! Yay!  I have had such a busy but productive week that it feels like Friday anyway! Plus I’m off tomorrow… Hee hee! 😬

So I got to thinking the other day…I’m going to graduate soon!  And I got an inkling in my brain “should I throw a party in celebration?”  So I did what most would do and I asked my best friend… She said Hell Yes! And then she mentioned something that hadn’t even occurred to me- graduation announcements! 

I have been scouring venues for a party and graduation annnounent invitations ever since. I’m so excited! I think I have found the perfect invitation announcement, venue is a little bit iffy still though. The place I really want to have it does not book reservations or private parties on Friday or Saturday nights. Weeknight parties are a no-go with my invite list.  Totally bummed about that so the hunt is still on.  I’ve made my invite list and everything so I can begin collecting addresses. Adam cracked me up by asking “don’t you just do an online announcement invitation?”  I’m like, No not for this, du-uh! lol!

But it’s like, it really has sunk in that I’m going to be done with school. Soon. I’ve been in school for over 4 years folks.  This is freaking awesome! And there’s a party in my near future.  Wooooooo-hooooo on all counts!

Saturday is my glow-in-the-dark 5k race. My daughter, best friend, and more friends are doing it too. It’s going to be a fun night!  What will I wear…👟👟

Happy Thursday, y’all! 

-xoxo

Progression 

Well it’s mid-week and so far I’ve kicked some butt already. I think…

I have been religiously logging everything that goes in my mouth in My Fitness Pal. I probably spent an hour+ going through everything in the app, logging goals, linking my Fitbit, upgrading to Premium… It really has paid off. I am getting a really good idea of what I’m getting in and where I need to adjust. Having this visibility is everything!  Really helping me a lot!  Thanks for all of the advice y’all!

I am hoping I broke the 2 lb yo-yo cycle this morning.  I was down a pound from my lowest log overall, breaking the stall (I truly hope) of a week and a half. I am really hoping this trend continues. Im officially 7 weeks post-op today and am down 25.6 lbs. Not where I thought I would be, I really feel like I should be around 35-40 lbs by now. I just keep telling myself to be more patient. That my skin will be able to keep up better if it comes off slower…. Whatever, just start dropping already! Grrrr…

Sorry, carrying on…

So I started Insanity Max 30 today. Holy Shit!! Annnnd that about covers it! I think I almost died, but I plowed through it. Day-dreaming of the day I can do all of these videos without modifications and can keep up the whole time. Bring it! Now if I can C25k early in the am and then Insanity at lunch time I’ll be in a really good place. Either way, one or both get done each day, so that’s progress. (I finally admitted to my husband I bought the Insanity program. So glad he wasn’t upset about the price tag.  Love his continued support!)

Overall I think my emotions are still pretty low, but not as bad as last week. I am still really frustrated and have to continually talk to myself to not get too low. But I feel like maybe this week I’m on the upper end of being being low-if that makes any sense.  I’m really trying and see that I am doing all of the things I’m supposed to (ok I still need to do better with fluids) but overall I am making a little more progress every day.

Comparing myself to others is hard not to do. I know we as a community talk about this topic a lot, but–we are the only litmus we have for this process.  Progress, wins, failures, tips, advice… That’s exactly what we share with each other in a very intimate way through this blogo-sphere home. So…how do we not compare with one another? I’m so proud of each of us for taking this step-myself included in that-and I want to be in the ‘success’ circle… And so I just need to make sure I am a success. In my daily activities, my eating, my fitness, and my psychological health.  All of it. 

Well, I’m a work in progress…and I’m glad I’m at least progressing. 

-Xoxo