The fear

In 2013 and 2014 I was working like a dog to lose weight. I was doing Crossfit 3x week, Paleo, Zone, you name it I was working at it. Although I saw changes in my body to a certain degree I never, ever broke 200lbs. I stayed right at it, but never could beak through on that scale. 

So now I am at 198.2. Super excited to see that number (even though this month is barely ticking along with the losses) I can’t tell you the last time I was in the 100’s at all! Yessss! And I’m wearing a Large now instead of XL!!!

It may be illogical, irrational, and just plain stupid, but I have a very real fear.  And can’t seem to shake the anxiety. I almost hate to blog about it…

As hard as I’m working and as close as I’m following the plan, I can’t stop my brain from worrying.

What if I don’t lose anymore?

Ok I know, I know, it’s a journey and it will come off, it is inevitable if I keep following the plan.  But I am not going to feel some relief of this (ridiculous) fear of mine until I hit the 180’s I think…then I think I may finally believe this is really happening…

  
What were some of your fears at the top of this journey-or that you’re facing right now? I’d love to hear…

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3 thoughts on “The fear

  1. Weirdly, I am getting smaller – clothes don’t lie but I don’t appear to be shedding much in the lbs front.
    I will say on occasion that I am concerned about this but then I just look at what I was like and how good I feel now and any thoughts of struggle or failure slip into the ether.
    Understand, some of us are simply bigger than others.
    It’s just the way life is.
    You are doing great and will continue to do so but NEVER put timescales on this because down that road leads disaster.

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  2. I guess I worry about having excess skin or my boobs flapping in the wind from time to time… But generally, I am super dang happy about my progress. I’ve lost 117 pounds and have about 33 left to go. I’ll get there. It’s not a race, it’s my life.😊

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  3. I think you are doing great and your concerns and thoughts are the same with all of us. I have those thoughts all the time . What if I don’t loose anymore what if I look gross if I loose too much ? It’s part of the process I know but still sucks the waiting period the stalls the negative thoughts. It all sucks until we get to our happy place. Keep your head up 🙂

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