Wore Out

I did way to much today. I shopped and pushed a huge cart around the store, loaded all those groceries into the cart and unloaded them into the car, then back out… I was wiped. Slept a couple of hours. Then met my BFF for coffee and shopping.  
My husband kindly reminded me I had major surgery a week and half ago and I wasn’t supposed to be pushing around a cart full of groceries dammit. Of course you’re tired and hurting, he says. 

I’ve only been getting about 300-400 calories per day. Not sure if that’s ok but I imagine liquids and 1 mashed up egg a day that is all you can accumulate. I haven’t found that burst of energy others say they have. I’m jealous. Happy for them but hoping  everyday for the same good fortune to find it too. I’m not dragging along but I sure do hit a wall by the end of the night each day. I know I really overdid it today especially. 

I know it will come soon when I can excersize for real. I’ve been sort of bummed I’m really not up for doing more than I am quite yet. Still healing. It makes me wonder if the 2 days most sleevers get in the hospital makes all the difference. I went home and hour and a half after my surgery.  

Patience is what I need to embrace a little more. Being gung ho to go is not necessarily the right course of action for me right this minute.  But I can keep the attitude and just be ready for when it’s time. 

Don’t let it get you, Amanda. 

Stats: -15.8lbs since surgery. CW: 217. Very happy with that progress.